Because I had one.
It was always independent of her.
And that's exactly as it should be.
I didn't need her to find me.
I didn't need her to save me.
I didn't need her to socialise.
To have fun.
I know who I am.
I've found him hiding late last year.
I know who I want.
I've found my confidence in the last year.
I know what I like.
I've always known to be fair.
I know how to get it.
I've discovered that everything is a choice.
Not doing something is as much a choice as doing.
Feelings and happiness are also a choice, but they're not quite so black and white.
Feelings always muddle things up somewhat.
But then that's what makes human.
And life interesting.