That's kind of how I feel. CENSORED Is that me just being mean? Is that me just being selfish and dramatising problems that probably exist only in my mind and in my heart?
I don't get this indifference. I rather be shouted at and know what somebody feels towards me than indifference. Maybe it's because I'm portuguese, and have latin blood, and we have our emotions too close to the surface so we kind of need to see that in other people. Obviously not everyone, but at least the people we care about.
CENSORED I don't know... I really just don't know... I hate not knowing! That's the worst, I always have had this unquenchable thirst for finding things out and understanding and analysing, not knowing for me is confusing and painful and furstrating.
CENSORED What have I done apart from revealing myself? CENSORED Showing myself? Am I ugly? Repellent?
Sharing really is a delicate business, you expose yourself to somebody else, and hope and trust they will not hurt you. When they do...