So, I got what I wanted. I was told the reason for the indifference. CENSORED Whatever
What can you say when anything that you say or do always seem to be taken completely out of context, or distorted, or misinterpreted?
If I get nothing, I can give nothing in return, surely. CENSORED . It makes me sad.
I did not want that. I wanted to take Sang's advice and retain the friendship. I really did, because I do care. And I rather have that connection than nothing. But it's got to be two way does it not? How can it work otherwise? Is that just me being too demanding? Unrealistic?
I have just met up with a friend from university a couple of days ago. (a bright day in the dark of the last few) We hadn't spoken to each other in a few years. We hadn't met up for about 7/8 years. Not on purpose, just life took its course. He was in the area and we me up, and it was like we saw each other every day. It was great seeing him again. We've arranged to meet up again, he invited me to visit him. There's a friendship renewed. So I know I am capable of having friends, and real sincere friendships, with varied and different people, all over the world.
So in that respect at least I know I am right, apart from death it is one of the things I am most certain of in my life.
It's sad. It could be the end.